Well I figured it's been a while since I've posted a new journal so I'm writing a new one today cuz I'm bored, I have nothing to do, I'm waiting for my GF to get off work, I have no money, and no job. I'm probaly going to end up ranting a little bit now too...

Speaking of no job... I have had the LAMEST time atempting to get one. I've been up and down 27, down 192, into Clermont, hell even into Orlando trying to get a job and to no avail! I have had some of the most rotten luck trying to get a job somewhere, ANYWHERE! good god the places I've been! Hell I've been even to snagajob.com! I feel like I have more luck getting a wife on an online dating servive than getting a job right now! I've tried every theme park in Orlando practicaly, tattoo parlors, McDonalds, AMC movie theatres, dollar stores, Epic movie theatres, ugg, you name it I've probaly been there... no one is hireing so this freaking sucks!!

I'm in this Internet cafe right now though and I feel like I'm in the slot machine section of a casino cause it smells like a nursing home and I hear tons of noises that sound like they belong in Vegas, but hell, internet's internet.

I'm trying anything I can to get a job so anyone who reads this journal, which will probaly be practicaly no one since no one reads these journals of mine except for a few people every now and then, if you know any website or something that will give me a better chance of snagging a job then please PLEASE refer it to me!! It's such BS that getting a job is this troublesome for me, hell some of my friends who are still in school are getting jobs like cake, me it's taking me freaking forever and with no pay off and I'm working my ass off to get one too!

It just pisses me off so much and also depresses me a little too, makes me wonder what the hell I'm doing wrong, I mean I dress nice, nicer than some of these other punk ass kids who get jobs while wearing filp flops for gods sake!! I wear a nice button up shirt and a nice pair of untorn, un ragged jeans and a nice pair of black shoes, not even sneakers, they look like nice dress shoes but they're cowboy boots actualy, but they still look really nice. I brush my hair, teeth, everything, the works and I still can't get a job, I hold myself with confidence, I speak intellectialy and properly, I just don't fucking understand why I can't land a simple fucking JOB!!!

I've graduated High School, sure I may have gotten a 2.4 GPA but I had a 3.0 at one point and 2.4 is still average to above average and it only dropped in the last semester or so cause I slacked off a little, but It's kinda hard to balance school and managing my own APPARTMENT at the same time!! All I want is a break, just a little freaking break! I feel horrible cause my GF's the only one bringing in the money and all of this pressure is being put on her.

I feel like a bad lover for making her have to deal with all of this stress so I try to stay strong for her but sometimes I fail at doing even that because I break down. I let things get under my skin untill they build up, then I just let it all loose. It all fucking sucks, and to all of those people who are actualy reading all of this thank you for reading, It means alot to me really, even though I may not know you personaly, and try to excuse all of my cursing, when I get frustrated and angry, they just kinda pop out there.

Well I think I'm just about done ranting here for now so, I'll post again later and hopefully by then I'll have some good news to tell.

Edit:
by the way i will hopefully be posting up some new artwork soon but these ones will have water marks on them because i've finaly found my true style in a way. so if you want clean versions of them you'll have to pay me. also i'm hopefully going to have my own website here soon, i'll let you all know when i have it set up. I may not need deviantart anymore. but it's not for certain though.

L8T3R,
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